Thursday, March 25, 2010

Packing My Life Into Boxes...


My husband has gone to New Orleans to start his new job... and Steffie and I are still here in Georgia.... my task is a huge one.... to pack up our lives with no certainty of when or where we will go... all I do know is that we will move somewhere in the next 2 - 3 months. It may be a new home here in this area... it may be a new home in New Orleans.... it may be a storage building for our belongings and a van to sleep in for us....

So right about now things are not so great... I'm sad and alone... angry and confused... and I could really use a support system of friends and family... neither of which is available to me.... but I will survive.... I will get through this just like I have gotten through tough situations before.....

And after all... I have a huge amount of packing to finish to keep my mind busy.... 10 years in one place means a lot of accumulated stuff to sort through and pack or get rid of.... and I've only just begun... my bathroom and bedroom are done.... 6 rooms to go.....

A Lil Enchanted,
~LaShan~

Friday, March 19, 2010

Friday Update...


Well it's kinda hard to post on this blog without talking at least somewhat about our move to New Orleans because right now that is the main focus of my life... as much as I wish it weren't. I have managed to get a bit of sleep.... though I'm still having issues with it... and we've had some insane events in the last few days... to catch up on all of that you can visit Moving To New Orleans....

Oh and that humongo electric bill... well yeah of course it was no mistake... we somehow managed to use twice as much power as last month... and three times what we used this time last year ... even though we keep everything unplugged when we're not using it and I even flip off the breakers to my major appliances when I'm not using them... the only explanation I can come up with is that my son's friend has been charging his car battery when he's here several times a week instead of repairing his alternator.... can that really use $300 worth of electricity in one month??? That was the only thing we've done differently. Needless to say he's not doing it anymore!!! I could have fixed his freakin car for him cheaper than that!!! Also needless to say he won't be offering up any money towards helping with that bill :(

In spite of our bad news this morning concerning Adrian's job... we decided to enjoy a beautiful day of sunshine... so we took Steffie to the playground and we had a picnic. Then we enjoyed a nice conversation with a new friend that we met there... turned out she lives just around the block from us and is a homeschooler too. Great... I meet her just in time to move away... right... oh well... we can keep in touch through Facebook. I didn't take any pics... but Steffie was sooo happy to be playing outside... and with other kids. She's a very outdoorsy kinda lil girl... and I think she may have met a friend that is even more bossy than she is...lol

Please forgive me if I don't get to visit your blog daily... I've got tons of packing to get done along with the usual daily household necessities... but hopefully after we get moved and everything settles I can get back to my regular visits. In the meantime I'll visit as much as possible... and try to keep posting here... and updating on our move on the other blog as well.

Hope everyone has a great weekend.... 2 more days until SPRING!!!!! YAY!!!

A Lil Enchanted,
~LaShan~

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Goddess Please Let Me Sleep....


so I won't be a bitch. I finally managed to fall asleep at 7:00 a.m..... I've had sleep issues since I was a lil girl... I can remember laying in bed at night crying because I couldn't go to sleep long after the other kids had... and I wasn't allowed to get up either... so I just laid there and cried... until sleep would finally wrap itself around me.

I still struggle with falling asleep... you see my brain will just not shut up and leave me alone.... I'm haunted by my own thoughts of things I need to do.... should have done... should have done differently... and things that happened that day or will happen in the days to come. It seems to come in spurts... sometimes it's much harder than other times... it seems to be brought on by stress and worry about what's going on in my life... and sometimes by some sub-conscious knowing that something just isn't right. I'll have trouble getting to sleep for days for apparently no reason... and then days later something will happen that I didn't expect.... and I know that it was the reason for my problem.

I've learned ways to deal with it over the years.... like reading a book until I fall asleep so my own thoughts can't torment me... but when you have other people in your bed it's kind of hard to do that and be comfortable and not disturb anyone. So I can also watch TV until I fall asleep.... and lately that is what I do... I lay on the couch and watch TV until I fall asleep. Trouble is I have to get to the point in sleep where I can eventually wake up and go get in bed without getting too awake to go back to sleep once I get there... or the process has to start all over again...

That's what happened last night... I fell asleep tried to go get in bed... but once I got there I was wide awake again. I've been in this really difficult state of trying to get to sleep for several months now... my sleep schedule is soooo messed up.... I'm up until 4-5:00 am.... and then and then when Steffie wakes up around 8:00am I'm still wanting more sleep... so I lay in bed and doze in and out for a few more hours while she plays and watches her shows in the next room. I'm really sick of this.... and it's soooo not good for her. I'm so thankful when Adrian is home in the mornings to be with her while I sleep.... but he's not always here in the mornings.... and Steffie is asking why Mommy sleeps until lunch time.

Last night was a really tough one... on top of being really stressed by this whole 'moving to New Orleans' thing.... I made huge mistake last night... I opened our electric bill and saw that our usage for last month was triple what it was for our March bill last year... and double what it was for last month! How on earth can that be??? We've had heating issues... but it shouldn't have made the bill that high... we've had the same issues on and off for years and it never made our bill increase that much.... and of course it's the weekend so I can't even call about it until Monday.... and when I do call I'm sure they will say it was no mistake. But I just don't see how it increased so much. I keep my breakers off for everything we're not using.... stove, washer, dryer, dishwasher etc.... I only flip the breakers on when I'm using them and right back off when I'm done.... and we keep everything unplugged that we're not using as well. I really should not have opened that bill until this morning. So now I'm totally stressed... and looking at another night of major sleep issues. I didn't even sleep in this morning... when Steffie woke me up I couldn't go back to sleep.... does that mean I'll fall asleep easier tonight.... nope... I know from experience that it will not.... I'll just be miserably sleepy and unable to fall asleep... again...

I need a vacation... I need to get rid of some stress and worry... but that just not likely to happen...

I hope everyone has a much better weekend than I'm having...

A Lil Enchanted,
~LaShan~

Friday, March 12, 2010

What's Going On....


So I've taken a bit longer of a break than I had planned. I've just been going through some emotional issues and blogging makes you have to think about things that sometimes you would rather not. So I took a break... and I guess you want to know where I've been... what I've been up to... and what the heck is going on here... or maybe not.. but if you do... here's the scoop....

I've been farming over on Farmville.... cooking over on Cafe World... tending a pet over on Petville... and I even have have a couple of islands of my very own as well.... really exciting stuff... right???.... lol... ok... maybe not... I got lost on Facebook playing these games because it's just easier than dealing with my thoughts and emotions... and it's fun too...

As far as other goings on... we made it through the holidays... I have a new Grandson... Sarah is now in a band and doing well.... Jordan is still living here with us... and lil Steffie is growing like a weed and way too smart for my own good.

And the big news is.... that we are probably moving to New Orleans... whether I want to or not is beside the point... looks like it will happen... and soon. Adrian went down last week for some interviews and he has already gotten a job offer that he needs to either decline or accept by Monday.... after that they want him to start in 2-3 weeks. He will most likely accept the job.... which means that things will happen pretty fast... and will also leave me with tons of packing and all else that goes with a huge move. We have started a new blog together to document our move and our feelings about it etc which you can find here:

So I'll be busy... but I'm hoping to get back to a regular blogging schedule... it's about time... and I've missed all of my bloggy friends that I haven't been hanging with over on Facebook :)

A Lil Enchanted,
~LaShan~